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Geeky or Freaky

So I was surfing through my favorite blogs and I came across a post about consumating.com. The consept intriged me. It is basically a friend/dating/people finding thingy… but instead of the normal write up a profile about yourself and let people look at your picture… this one is all about tags… you know, the things that are catching on all around the internet… started with photos… most notably at flickr. Anyway, This service is really cool… even if you aren’t single you should check it out… it is fun… another way to waste even more time on the internet! yay! ugh!

It is basically a dating site for nerds…. people give you a thumbs up or thumbs down… based on your tags or on how you answer the question of the week. Really, you should just take a look for yourself.

doesn’t mean it will be easy

Star of Life

So basically God likes new things… and change. Yes, I went to church today. I was think’n about going for like a while… like a long while and seeing as how my life took an unexpected turn, I decided I really want to go this Sunday… but I was still pretty lazy about it. Anywho, My dad calls and says that he feels like I should go to church today… because it will be good for me… So then I’m like, fine… I’ll go… so I did.

Anyway, today’s sermon was about accepting big changes God has in store for life…. well isn’t that just interesting. Coincidence…? Perhaps, but either way it was a swell sermon… nothing special happened like everything was all clear and stuff, but it basically just helped me to re-focus my attention… or maybe just think about things in a different way… I dunno, it was good and it is hard to explain to all ya’ll, but it was good for me and I guess that is all you really need to know huh?

Basically (even taking God [and religion] out of the picture) if things don’t change how can they get better? They can’t… they will stay the same… even if the sameness was nice and comfortable… it won’t get better… But then you run the risk of becoming worse… yeah that’s true… but probably not… Every experience makes you a new person than you were the moment before… so just deal… ugh… I sure don’t wanna deal… oh well… I’m going to and I’m going to accept this change with open arms and an open mind and a new perspective. Life, after all, rocks my socks off.

“What God did yesterday was good. But, What He has planned for today is even better!”
-Quote from today’s sermon-

now?

Live that shit!

I was able to cry a little bit today. Finally, a small bit of closure.
What did I do wrong?!?!!?!? My head screams. It hurts so bad. But the pretty pictures stuck to the door with failing adhesives lie. All the smiles are fake now… nothing now… hurt so bad now… and I just want to crawl into a hole… and sleep… forever….. people change… times change… hurt is life… life is life… go with it.. deal with it… without pain we’d all be numb…

I need a stand up hug now more than ever.
Thank you friends that are true… you mean alot.

Ponytail Parades

“Three sleepless nights,
this isn’t how its supposed to be.
But you are so good at
taking your time to get back to me.

I will wait for you forever,
if you would just ask me.
I thought that I could change you
but you changed me.

But it doesn’t feel right,
holding someone else’s hand.
Together on phone line,
and living at two opposite ends.

It scares me to think,
that you could find takers other than me
and better than me.

But you’re head is elsewhere,
and I’m talking enough for both of us.
When will you see it’s not (it’s not) so easy for me
you’re careless, and whispered, insulting, and bruising.

And I thought that you said
things were improving.
These laces are untied,
but my feet are still walking away.

(I fall from you eyes, your eyes I trusted, you said forever)
I never thought that you could say these words.
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words.
(Don’t say…)
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words.
(Don’t say that we can…)
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words.
(Don’t say that we can still be…)
Is this really happening?
I never thought that you could say these words.
Is this really happening?
(Don’t say that we can still be friends)

Erase my name from this page.

How can you take all these days
(What is inside of me what have I done?)
and throw them away
(Is this the only way that you will notice me?)
as I sit here waiting for you (for you)
(Dead words for closed ears all this is sung for you)

I stay up nights
(If you are still pretending this is what’s right)
until stars leave the sky
(Why cant you look at me can you only see?)
knowing what my dreams can take away
(Sides, your side, can take away)
Walk away from me.
This night is done.”

by Emery

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for Patric

Music Poll for Jeff

CODE: Music Poll to Soothe the Soul. I found this on Jeff’s blog. I’m doing it for you buddy.

Most played Artist

How many songs: 12809, 62.68 GB

Sort by song:
First Song: ’84 Pontiac Dream by Boards of Canada from The Campfire Headphase
Last Song: Zulfiqar III by Secret Chiefs 3 from Book M

Sort by time:
Shortest Song: [00:00] The Crane Takes Flight by Ted Leo & The Pharmacists from Hearts of Oak
Longest Song: [37:46] I Don’t Keep With Liars Anymore by The Bled from Found In The Flood
(I didn’t count my audiobooks which have tracks up to 1:16:00)

Sort by artist:
First Artist: The (International) Noise Conspiracy
Last Artist: Zwan

Sort by album:
First Album: ‘Round About Midnight by Miles Davis
Last Album: Zopilote Machine by The Mountain Goats

Top Five Most Played Songs (including ties):
1. This is How it Goes by Aimee Mann
2. Why Georgia by John Mayer
3. I Need Some Sleep by The Eels
3. Heartbeats by Jose Gonzalez
4. Ghost World by Aimee Mann
4. Believer by Ben Kweller
4. Family Tree by Ben Kweller
4. Crosses by Jose Gonzalez
4. Waste by Phish
5. Good Night by The Beatles
5. Fresh Feeling by The Eels
5. Better Together by Jack Johnson

First song that comes up on Shuffle: Bliss by The Tallywood String Quartet from Tribute to Muse

Run a Search. How many results for:
sex? 22
death? 146
love? 550
you? 1308
final? 42
life? 264
real? 80
true? 70

So there you have it. With this survey I’ve decided to add to my site something that I’ve kind of been doing for a while. I’ve been keeping track of the songs I listen to using last.fm . It is pretty cool. Anyway, on the side of the page you should be able to see images of the most played artist and track of the week… each week. That is also where the picture comes in on the upper left corner. That is most played Artist overall.

Different

Why is it that I can’t accept my humanity. That is, I don’t like the fact that I am like everybody else. I am controlled by the same emotions and have the same feelings that everyone else had/has. “There is nothing new under the sun.” I guess I kind of now understand how Patric must feel with 4 older siblings who have experienced alot. He has to go to extremes to be different than us…. to be unique. I mean… is it that important to be different… well yes… to me it is… being different is the most important thing to me right below being loved. I think it comes from wanting to leave a mark on the world. If you are just the same as everyone around you, than your life is no more important than the next guy (at least that is the feeling/thought that I have). Anyway, I’ve discovered the feeling of grief. It is weird. quite weird. Check out what wikipedia had to say… this is for patric:

“Persons often remark on how someone appears stoic or strong when they are actually in shock. “

That is just craziness. I am bond by my humanity and I don’t want to accept it. I hate who I am.. that is a human. The physical constraints of my life are depressing and my thoughts and emotions are governed by chemical reactions. The only way to change those is to throw in synthetic chemicals and hope for the best. I don’t love or hate right now.

I will never love again……

I will never love again……

A Land Cruiser

JL421 Badonkadonk
Land Cruiser/Tank

So, I was surf’n the information super highway and I happened upon this little gem. It is a Land Tank that apparently Amazon is offering… Anyway, the real fun happens when you read the comments about it. So take a look and enjoy your day.

Try it

Put on a pair of headphones and walk around a crowded area… or sit and watch/listen. I mean… just put on a pair of headphones… don’t play music through them… just put ‘em on. It is interesting how the worl d treats you and how people think you can’t hear them… or it is more of they are not sure if you can hear them or not… either way… it is quite fun. do it… go to the mall or a store… and wear them the whole time… ask for assistance or pay attention when you check out… people are fun to watch.